Sivin posed a few interesting questions in the last post Take Time to look at your life, Pt1
How would you describe your relationship with God right now?
In all honesty? Comfortable. But kinda stuck, like it's not going up or down.
What have you been doing to cultivate your relationship with God lately? What spiritual disciplines have been most meaningful to you?
I've been reading the bible. Praying a little, trying to get my feet back into Christian fellowship. The most meaningful spiritual discipline, I guess, is meditating on God's word and chewing on the issues that surround my faith. I've no idea if this is a spiritual discipline or not, but it has helped me gain confidence in asking God the tough questions.
Has God spoken to you recently through his Word, in prayer, or through other people? What has he said? How have you responded?
Truly, I've not been listening well! But a recent event in my life made me realise that nothing is forever. What you amass for yourself - reputation, power, money - may be gone just like that. Having witnessed it happen to others, I realise that my treasure is not on Earth but with God. Having that kind of belief does help me weather sudden, terrifying changes in a more calm way because I know God has a plan for me, no matter how dark.
Are there some particularly rough spots in your life that you'd like to talk to God about? Is there anything you need to confess?
Rough spots? Well, currently my doubt about my career. I made a career move a few years ago because I thought "God told me to". Now, I realise that it could've been wishful thinking on my part. Another part, however, was convinced that it wasn't, so I have to fight these two conflicting viewpoints.
A lot of times I feel like a fool for making that career move, but when I see the positive aspects of that move - more skills, money and friends - I have to realise that God knows what he's doing. Now, I only can trust him to lead me to a new place. That's scary.
And I confess that I doubt God's good intentions a lot, no matter how I try not to.